It's midnight as the city clock rang filling the air with her Beautiful music.  Unable to sleep, unable to silence the voice that consumes my every thought.  Thee struggles I have been threw with trying to put her voice at ease is wearing on me.  My life has always been consumed with that wicked voice.  So many times I have tried to kill her, so many doctors, so many pills.  My life isn't owned by me but is owned by her.  She I speak of has no name just a voice, every time I close my heavy tired eyes I see an image of that wicked women and that's enough to frighten me awake.

   For the past twelve years I have not slept but only a few hours a day if I am lucky, and every night before I close my eyes I ask myself what have I done to deserve such punishment?  I pray to God, help me for I am losing my mind, and losing my life.  I can't bear this sorrow anymore.  My heart grows heavier and heavier. I can feel my emotions fading and they are fading fast.  I am crying out to someone anyone.  Can no one hear me?  These are real tears that flow from these dark cold eyes.  This is real pain the flows threw this heart of mine with every beat.  When will this be over?  When will the pain fade.  As I sit on this cold metal chair looking outside at the glowing lights of the city beneath me I wonder if this is how my life is supose to be, are my actions and my thoughts correct or are they just pure evil?  She speaks to me. "There needs to be evil in this world; enjoy the power you hold and embrace it".  Oh God she is back.  Please not tonight let me rest my weary eyes, and figure out what I have just done.

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Posted by philneale1952 2008-07-31 15:48:54 Illness As far as stories of mental strain go this was interesting. I see recurring nightmares coupled with a multiple personality. Is there a killer lurking beneath the surface and will this develop into some psychopatic episode. I'm Waaatchingggggg....... One note though. Don't rely on spell checker to weed out grammatical errors (threw = through?) Phil + Report this comment
Posted by Tarhead Mugwump 2008-07-31 21:01:28 i agree with sir phil, this is a good play on the inward crazy thing. i also agree with the notion that if you were to spend a little more time chasing spelling and grammer smackers - you would have a very smooth reader here. write on! + Report this comment
Posted by Heel 2008-08-01 07:41:30 .... I think the chapter can be developed further. By the way I know a very good recipe for dealing with such problems- drinking. This may not be appropriate in this case though.:) + Report this comment
Posted by The 13th 2008-08-01 13:13:53 .... Very good start... You have me waiting for your next chapter and I'm left wondering what's going to happen next. + Report this comment
Posted by Something Indecent 2008-08-04 06:38:31 .... Yeah there are some errors that do need attending too but other than that it is a pretty good read. Are you planning on continuing this and developing it? + Report this comment
Posted by chaabuk 2008-08-20 23:52:57 .... Mind games, eh! This is a charming piece of writing that I have read in recent times. One must always strive to strike a chord in a reader’s heart. You have achieved it in great measure. Good job. Keep it up. ;-) + Report this comment
Posted by villanova21 2008-08-27 21:42:31 Short but sweet This was a short chapter, but a chapter with promise. I would continue this because i see it going many different ways in my mind. Can't wait to see where you go... + Report this comment

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