It was always so easy for him to hurt me; he could always ignore me as easily as a stranger could do.

Our relationship was always like a two-way street that on one side there was always a traffic jam and on the other side no car passed in one year! I loved him even more than myself and I would do anything to make him smile but...

He's been so cool since I first met him so I have never expected him to love me or care for me but it was so common for him to expect me to love him as I could die in that love!

With him, I saw myself in a winter storm and although I tried so hard to keep myself warm, I couldn't stop shivering.

As time went by, he turns even colder, at the end I saw him kissing a girl in the street-Ah- I could feel like dieing.

When I saw him like that, I felt that the most hurtful thing was not that girl whom he was kissing or even that kiss-because it was not that much shocking to see him doing such things as I said he could do anything to hurt me-the main thing which hurt me was the love I could feel in that kiss, so he loved her, ok! It was ok with me! But he loved her and he was betraying her, at least I could feel relaxed that he never loved me; but what about that girl? He loved her...and on the other hand, he didn't love me but he didn't leave me for the one who really loved! It made me think: were there other girls as well? The dolls like me?

 It hurt me a lot as I never felt such a heart break, I could run to that girl and alarm her about that beast she was kissing, but I stayed calm and let it pass.

Without even one word I left him and as I could guess he didn't even care for that, but I was thankful because at least I knew how to love so I could be hopeful to find a real love somewhere else as I did. He married that girl but they broke up after one month because the girl found him sleeping with her friend.

When my friends asked me how could you leave him that easily although you loved him? I said: yeah, I loved him but he didn't even care for the ones who loved and luckily I was not one of those people!
After all I've been through, I always ask God to give me love and teach me how to show it to my beloved!

Keyword: kiss of betray

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Posted by Pilgrim 2008-06-29 10:35:38 .... This was confusing to read, though it could depict the mind of the betrayed. A lot of grammatical errors, this always throws off the story line. "on" not "in". "on" the other side. "not a car passed in over a year." "he turns to be"? maybe "he turns"? + Report this comment
Posted by shirin 2008-06-29 12:07:54 thank u Pilgrim! it's all becoz of english language and the matter of not being a native!thanx any way + Report this comment
Posted by lemon 2008-06-29 12:57:21 .... I understand the feelings you are trying to portray here, but I did think it was a confusing read. It kind of seemed like one long sentence. I think it has potential though. =] + Report this comment
Posted by resistanceisfreedom 2008-06-29 17:48:06 .... i didn't think it was really all that confusing to get through. and i could see where you were going with it.....i just think you could have made it alot better. oh and i like your title! + Report this comment
Posted by bubbly 2008-07-06 00:28:58 heart-warming hi! shirin. r there men like these - a philanderer. it's a good thing u escaped his wretched "love". i liked the ending. definitely, u've asked god for the best thing in life - mutual love. heart-warming. lol. ;-) + Report this comment
Posted by 2008-07-06 09:18:11 .... hi bubbly! yeah,i think some men r like that,i'm so happy that u like it!i wish love could be mutual always! + Report this comment    + Delete this comment
Posted by JJtyler 2008-07-14 20:48:06 .... I think the sentiment and the passion of a love lost was here, but the execution was off. You mentioned that English is your second language (in the comments), and for that reason alone you should be commended, as you write better than a good chunk of us who have been writing and speaking it our entire lives. + Report this comment
Posted by stronger 2008-07-16 16:11:43 .... Wow, this is a really touching story. I think you should write more like this. + Report this comment
Posted by xiao67yang 2008-07-18 08:22:09 jUsT a WiLd GuEsS iT's A pErsOnaL ExPeriEnCe, iSn'T iT...!? XD + Report this comment
Posted by shirin 2008-07-18 11:29:43 .... hi xiao67yang!thanx for your comment! not a wild quess,of course! yeah,kind of a personal experience,i wonder why did you ask such a question?!isn't it that clear?! + Report this comment
Posted by chaabuk 2008-07-23 09:07:51 .... By nature man is cruel and selfish. That is why God created a woman, who is considered a nurturer and love personified. This is exemplified in your story to a greater extent. This is also in contrast to your friendship story. But I like both. + Report this comment

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