Sometimes when you feel like letting go and you know that you really have too you just have to let go. It's maybe hard because you still love that person but "the love" is just not enough to make him proud of you. Sometimes in our life we come to the point that we have to open our eyes to new things that it can give us. We need to love ourself and take time to know it better than anybody else. And you know that you can't do it if there's still somebody out there that you need to worry about. You have to let him go and do the same thing. We need to do that to make ourlife more meaningful because life's too short eventhough right now you don't feel it that way.

"Love can wait" ... that's what they always say but I guess I'm not the right person to decide and to tell if it's true. Maybe it works for most people but not for me. It's hard to choose when you know you have to take the risk. It's hard to choose if it's between the special someone or yourself. I'm not really an avid fan of the line "and they live happily ever after" because mostly it doesn't work for me. I'm a loser and I would always accept that.

I don't know if this is right to leave him hanging full of questions. I just don't want to face him and I know I can't do it too. I'm embarrased of the promises that I made that I never really wanted to break it's just that I have to. I need to be alone to be independent and love myself. I need to look for it right now because if I won't be able to find it now I don't know how to find it the next time I have a chance and I'm not sure if I will have.  I know losing him really hurts. Iam hurting right now and I don't know how to mend it alone. I don't know how to fix the mess and the shattered pieces. It's hard to wake up in the morning thinking that you'll going to be alone in this game now.

I just hope I made the right decisions and I just hope that I'm hiking in the right road. I'm not really sure but right now the road is very rocky and very shaky. It's very vulnerable and I don't know maybe time will come if I won't hold on tightly to what i believed in the ground might swallow me.

I'll just wait for the right time to come you know when the sky's not that foggy at all. Just like now, it's foggy and my eyes too is a bit cloudy. Maybe it will rain anytime soon.

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Posted by lemon 2008-06-23 21:11:34 .... I saw a few issues with this story. 1- you should use spellcheck so that it makes your story an easier read. 2-Grammarcheck for the same reason as spellcheck. 3- A lot of the sentences were run-on sentences and made it hard to understand what was going on. I think this could be interesting, but it needs an overhaul. Don't get frustrated, just keep going =] + Report this comment
Posted by Dirkin 2008-06-24 00:26:12 .... I agree with some of the sentiments in this. Its hard to really say anything about this as a story because it seems like such a personal confession, maybe I'll just say that it really does seem like you are sharing something real with us not fiction + Report this comment

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