Another Man's Trash is Another Man's Treasure pt. 3
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Written by alyreche
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Monday, 23 July 2007 |
Just as I think things can get better it only gets worse. So I am still speaking to Gary but less and less. He is not serving the purpose I intended and that was to give me money and take me out when I wanted to go. He seems very cheap and that’s not going to fly with me. Yesterday he calls me out the blue telling me he is still going to buy me those boy shorts he promised but only if I model in them for him, first of all I don’t even like you that way and you have nothing I want but your money. I am actually turning into a man I think. A lot has happen to me since I met Gary and I feel like the more men I date, the easier the transition from Ryan. I love Ryan so much but after July 9th my concept of us together maybe again one day kind of died. On July 9th my best friend gave a barbeque for
her husband’s birthday and I attended with the idea I was going to have fun not get snuffed by Ryan’s new girlfriend. It was definitely a night to remember. We all standing around and his girlfriend Candy comes up to me to introduce herself and I lay into her with all the words of wisdom. I don’t think she really knew what kind of man she was dealing with. She begins to get hostile and before I know we were intervened by my friend and her husband. That would not be the end of our first encounter. So I am finally winding down and I began to drink and carry on with the guys until Ryan feels need to come let me know how happy he is with his new boo. With all my might I hit him and as I watch his skin turn red and his eyes turn black with fury, I move back and forth in a fighting stance. We began to argue and as I walk towards him again, Candy hits me and we began fighting and even though my adrenalin is raging and I know I am stronger than her, my mind goes blank and I am on top of her beating the sense she should’ve come to the bbq with. It took the police to mace me to get me off of Candy and as I let my pit-bull grip go, I realized I was set up and Ryan really won. I still can’t believe what just happened. Candy was just as much a victim as I was but she was more of an idiot as well. Even though I won that fight I lost myself also. I never conducted myself in that way and fighting in the street was not me. The next day as the hood press gossiped about the fight, I decided I could not be around this anymore and I had to let Ryan go. When I realized he didn’t even care if I was hurt, I knew we were over and I needed to love myself more than I was. I was so angry and I didn’t know what I could do so I seeked out a plan and came up with one showing our neighborhood what type of man Ryan really was. A flier was mad and passed around all over explaining to people what he was about and if it were a lie it would be slander but in this case it was helpful information. A couple of days went by and his family contacted me about the flier and my natural intentions would be to curse them out but I did even better, I cut his mom and family off from me because they were not healthy for me and I needed to move on without drama. I hear Ryan just bought himself a new car and I knew he wanted it and my first reaction was to vandalize it but then I thought to myself it would make no sense because one of us had to be adult about this and stop. I left it alone and Candy as well. I realize how I can be happy if I don’t try and let this mess go. I see him sometimes and I look the other way because it still hurts. I haven’t been making decisions I usually make. I met a guy named Sam and he is from Brooklyn and I like him as a friend and he actually has his own drama with his baby mother and he actually is a wonderful father to his daughter unlike my kid’s father. We went on a date and then I slept with him and it wasn’t all I expected but I needed it and Sam served his purpose. I hear Sam was arrested in family court and just as I was about to see what he was about his baby mother had him put in jail for personal reasons. Women can be very devious creatures and when hurt their wrath is destructive. I hear he will be out soon and I think I will give him a chance for close friendship because he was a gentleman to me and I actually felt safe and content. We will see how he treats a lady. Lord knows I am sick of being treated like a trash.
Stay tuned for pt. 4
Copyright 2007 alyreche
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