An Elliptical Facade 

The morning dew just sits
Waiting to glisten with
The pretentious day
More tired than idle really
But nonetheless, useless
Relying on a new sun's
Orbital path to catch or absorb
Any movement of whispered grace

The winter has grown
Beyond a cold season
And has now frosted over
The window I once knew

I used to wake up to it, willingly
And see myself in its glass,
But now there is no reflection 
Only the morning winter dew
Pretending it fell just for me

But no wait, how careless
Of my initial welcoming
To mistake pride's sleepy
Assessment of this faltered dawn

I see clearly and within reason
How it reflects me so vividly
And understandably now that
This elliptical winter's perception
Rings uncomfortably true

I was hidden in physicality
Its magical but gossamer shine
Its relevance cold, wet, icy touch
Like the aspiration I hold onto

But I the same, shivering inside
Frosted over in false memory
Emotion completely shut out
For twice many, it has remembered
To experience my faded laughter

Where did I lose sight
Of the world that passed
Before or beside me?

Today's reality, like frost bite
Has revealed more than most
Yet lost nothing of face value

For the reflection I once knew
And the happiness I thought
As the warming of anticipation

Was silent and brittle 
So like every other soul
Who lost heart to any day

I decide to walk aimlessly
Without a shadow or
Mindset to consider

Only to contemplate
As to why my intent
Is to remain frozen