I am not looking to aggrieve, nor am I looking for love,

I am looking for peace within myself

I am not looking to make someone proud, nor look upon a cloud

All I want is happiness

Flatter yourself not, I am not looking for adoration either

All I want is happiness

You would think, seeing you would be hard now

But all I feel is regret

Nothing is stopping me from finding happiness

So why am I writing this?

I cannot still have feelings for you

What about my ego? What about my pride?

You did not want to be friends, let alone anything else

Am I that pathetic, that sad; unable to even forget you?

Am I deemed incapable to befriend

Do I really feel regret when I see you

Or is it easier to believe that I do?

Is my pride disguising what I really feel;

Could I be in love with you?

I do not know what love means

All I know is that this is as close as I've ever been

You never gave me a chance to get to know you,

Not as a friend or as anything else

You have done nothing but avoid me

When I have done everything to befriend you

How can I be in love with you

After all I've been through

It all makes sense now, I am not in love with you,

I am in love with what I imagined you to be

Caused by an imaginary person

Never in my life have I ever loved you; It is what I envisioned you to be,

which I've loved, all along

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MMK

Keyword: Poetic Unraveling of My Soul

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Posted by R.E.Potter 2008-04-24 16:49:28 ,,, This seems like a sincere poem of a tortured soul. For that I could relate to what you are going through if you are truly heart broken. If your not,,well you convinced me that you were.,,,time is great for one thing... helps you to forget. Nice poem. + Report this comment
Posted by mmk080 2008-04-24 17:31:11 .... Actually, Potter, I wrote this about a year or so ago and have since overcome my "slump". I wrote this as a way to put my thoughts into perspective. And it turned out more therapeutic than I had anticipated. I felt a sense of releif when I wrote it. Anyway, thanks for your comment and for reading! + Report this comment
Posted by Dirkin 2008-04-24 21:33:55 .... The interesting layout of this piece made it sound like an argument between the little angel and devil that appears on peoples shoulders... I agree that sometimes the idea of someone turns out to be a lot better than the reality. good job + Report this comment
Posted by mmk080 2008-04-25 19:34:03 .... Thank you for the wonderful comments, both of you. + Report this comment

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