This isn't how I pictured my life

thinking about death and wanting to die.

I was happy and free like a kite

or so I thought but its only a lie.

It all started when I became a teen

and life got confusing and I felt blue.

everyone around you feels like their mean,

but really, they are just ignoring you.

On the outside I smiled a lot

but inside I frowned more.
I couldn't really connect the dots,

what was I living for?

Sometimes I would picture myself dying

and it actually would calm me down.

You still reading this, you think I'm lying?

I feel like I was beat into the ground.

I lie awake at night thinking it through

if killing myself would be wrong.

Do you know what its like to feel blue,

do you think I'm just singing a sad song?

Well tonight is the night you will see

I sit here telling you this as I cry

go on, leave, forget about me

because tonight is the night I will die.

The end!

Keyword: I give up

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Posted by Vango 2008-04-14 09:53:28 .... Man I understand. + Report this comment
Posted by lorislittlesecret 2008-04-14 11:07:26 .... how sad.... + Report this comment
Posted by resistanceisfreedom 2008-04-14 19:35:14 .... great poem. expresses so much pain. + Report this comment
Posted by Dirkin 2008-04-14 21:15:08 .... Very powerful. I hope you're ok... + Report this comment
Posted by The 13th 2008-04-18 10:38:02 .... Gotta agree with the above comments.Sad and powerful. + Report this comment
Posted by Turan1986 2008-04-19 07:52:01 .... Hey, man, don't disapoint,try to gather all your courage and jump over the barrier. Good luck, man! + Report this comment
Posted by R.E.Potter 2008-04-19 14:01:33 ,,, Really don't no why I writing a comment. Since your dead you won't see it. In case your still around,,,good poem....and one last thing....Dont do it!! + Report this comment

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