Let Me Go!

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     "Let me go!! Leave me alone!! This is none of your business", Sam was yelling at the top of his lungs as he pulled his arm free.  He felt a little guilty when he saw the look of panic in the old lady's face when he pulled himself free, but really - oh, well.

     Free, finally free. Jerks. Where do people get off trying to always control everybody else's life? I'm so tired of this. Jerks. I'm tired of always being a target. I'm tired of always having to do the right thing; and just what is the hell right thing anyway? Does anybody know?  What?  Drag a poor idiot's heart and life around in the mud until you've had enough fun with him and then trash him? Yeah, well, I'll teach them all. I'll show them all!

     Jeez, I didn't realize how cold it was.

     And what about those pin heads at work? Where do they get off firing me? It isn't like I'm late every day. Shoot, Cindy is late as much as I am, and she still works there. She's cute, I'm not - pretty simple. That's what it is. I hate this world! Women get away with everything.

     Wow, I never noticed how beautiful the trees are when the leaves start to change. I don't remember ever seeing so much color.

      Where are the nice people? Why do I always have to run into the jerks? Everywhere I turn there's another person trying to ruin my life. Why do people follow me? Are they so bent on doing me in that they have to follow my every move? I'll bet there's nobody following me now.

     I hate when I feel like this. I hate when I get impulsive and destructive and then do things that destroy my life. I hate starting over. Why do I always have to crash and burn before I realize that most of the things that I thought were real were in my head?  Hmm...  I've never had that thought that before...

     I've never thought about the fact that I may be the problem; that I ruin my own life and everyone else is really just living their own lives.

     Maybe I'm taking a step towards healing? That would be so nice. Until some jerk comes along and ... No, I can't think that! I have to stop thinking like that. I have to keep thinking that I'm in control. I make the decisions.

     I make the choices.

     I know why they fired me.  They fired me because I acted like a total jerk. I didn't want to work hard. I really didn't want to work at all. I must be a pain to be around. I know Sherrie didn't dump me because she didn't care. I mistreated her. I'm sure of it. I treated her like she didn't deserve me. Truth is, I didn't deserve her.

     I'm such an idiot.

     I can't believe how blue the sky is! Wow! I guess I just never really looked. The air smells so good. The earth colors are so bright. I had no idea how many colors a tree can take on. I always just saw alive and dead, green and brown. I related to that. Alive and dead, that's how my life works.

     I see so much now. Now I know how people can be happy. Now I know that I am capable of being happy. This has got to be the best thing that I've ever done. Well mostly, I guess. Man, that hot air balloon is getting smaller and smaller - really fast.

     I was really mean to that lady up there; I regret that.  She was just trying to help - shame she wasn't successful.

     I remember all of those times my coworkers and I sat in the break room at work and wondered what our last wishes would be. I remember wishing that the whole world would just disappear from my life and leave me alone. That seems so long ago now. Things look so different now. Much clearer.

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Posted by Roadkill315 04-09-2008 08:56,   ... Can't begin to count the number of times I wish I had a parachute myself. Getting fired sucks too. Captured those realities well here. Thanks   » Report this comment to administrator » Reply to this comment... » See all 1 replie(s)   Posted by ThomasP3 04-09-2008 10:12,   ... That was so cool! That's the best way to sum it up for me! I was completely caught off guard with that ending. LOL. Also how true it was, think before you act, before it is to late.   » Report this comment to administrator » Reply to this comment...   Posted by lorislittlesecret 04-09-2008 10:39,   ... What a twist at the end....clarity at the moment of death. I wonder if it will happen to all of us....   » Report this comment to administrator » Reply to this comment...   Posted by thirteen 04-09-2008 12:17,   ... Yeah, liked how he's anger turned into regret.But great last line.Is this a new one or an old one.Never read this one before, bloody good.   » Report this comment to administrator » Reply to this comment...   Posted by lobiva nadha 04-09-2008 21:31,   ... yeah!! the story was great.   » Report this comment to administrator » Reply to this comment...   Posted by AGDouglas 04-11-2008 03:59,   ... Great story. It's a familiar thought process, though without the jump to death it's drawn out, fragmented and forgotten, and doesn't make for so fine a read.   » Report this comment to administrator » Reply to this comment...   Posted by R.E.Potter 04-13-2008 13:25,   ,,, Really good lil story. Loved the ending, I enjoy stories like this.   » Report this comment to administrator » Reply to this comment...

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