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Broken Hearts |
| Written by Ashley Amos | |
| Wednesday, 02 April 2008 | |
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Hi my name is Emily Jones; I live in Vancouver, Canada. I was born in LA but my mother and I moved to Canada after my dad died. He was killed in a horrific car accident when I was just 14 but now 2 years later my mother and I are still going strong. She now has a new boyfriend and a baby on the way, but my life is some what different. Let me take you back to the first day of school. It was my first day of grade 11and I had still not yet turned 16, and it was my first day in a new school. It was a chance for me to make a different impression on myself to show these people around me a different person to what I used to be. I’m not an ugly girl I just didn’t like to show my body as much as the girls in Canada. I’m around 1m57 I have long black hair that is close to the top of my hips, I have crystal blue eyes and I weigh around 54kg. I like to wear long sleeve shirts and jeans but that whole image was about to change. I had met one person my age while walking the streets one day, Rose Parker. Rose was very friendly and offered to show me the ways of a Canadian Girl. She was slightly taller than me and had long brown hair and lots of freckles. With my weekly allowance Rose showed me all the right clothes and shoes and I was ready for school, well at least I thought so anyway but for what I was about to experience I would give everything up to forget. School was like a jungle full of lockers and kids rushing here and there. Their average school day rush and I was now a part of it. Just as I was getting to like the idea of me being a part of this, the worst thing in the world happened, I met the most popular people in the school, they were The Pussycats. They walked past with their noses in the air. Each shoulder that pasted collided with mine as we crossed paths, then they stopped and a tall blond headed girl turned around, obviously this was their leader. Jessica Milton. She walked up to me and looked me over like a person inspects their newly bought car. Jessica was tall and elegant and most likely rich, she had light tanned skin and a body to die for this was a girl every boy would dream of dating. After a few awkward moments she turned her back and walked away. The whole day was like a rollercoaster moving here and there between classes, finally the end of the day came and I met up with rose at the car park and started to walk home. “So how was your first day at school” Asked Rose? “Not too bad could have been better” “Why” “It was so hectic, all the running around, I mean my school was big but it was nowhere near as busy.” “You meet any guys” “No” “Cool I have someone for you too meet” I looked at her with a worried expression on my face, rose smiled and walked a little faster; I followed egger to find out who she was talking about. It was now that I started to worry about my appearance, what I looked like and how I dressed, I mean I’m 16 what do you expect. And boys, I would always scan the crowd looking for that certain someone that I thought could be my future husband but most of the time they were rich and snobby so I didn’t bother Rose took me too her place and sat me on the couch and walked towards the kitchen, she stopped at the door and asked me what kind of drink I wanted. I sat on the couch, their house was so elegant all the furniture in its exact place. There were large paintings on the walls and a large fake tiger skin rug on the floor this was the kind of house I would dream to live in. There was a noise behind me as I turned around there in the doorway stood a guy; I could not see his face because he was backed up into the shadow “Hi I’m rose’s cousin” he softly said as though not to let rose know he was talking to me “Hi I’m Emily” “Jeremy” I stood up and started too walked toward him to introduce my self but he backed up a little so I stopped, maybe he didn’t like company. “Did I do something?” I asked “No I just ummm…” He walked out of the shadows and I stared, a low ‘wow’ escaped my mouth and I clasped it shut. “Yeah I get that from most girls” I had never in my whole life seen anyone as perfect as this guy standing in front of me. He was tall and his skin was dark tanned unlike rose. He had dark wavy hair and the shirt he was wearing clung to his body so it showed every muscle. “Most girls usually drop to the ground and start to worship me but you could skip that part. I laughed “You’d be pushing really hard to get me to bow” “Are ...Are you...serious, I mean you moaned and well most girls find me very…” “Intimidating” I finished his sentence for him with a smug look on my face. “That wasn’t exactly the finish I was going for but okay” I laughed and turn toward the couch and thought well maybe if I just play it cool I could have a chance, but by now I had learned not to get my hopes up too high. Rose walked in “so I see you’ve already met Jeremy, he’s my cousin, he’s here to start school this year” “So how old are you” I asked sitting down on the couch and sipped my drink “I’m 17, grade 12 this year” “Oh so your only a year ahead of us” “Yeah” Jeremy looked at his feet “Why did you move here?” Jeremy looked at her with a scared expression on his face; he just looked at his feet then back at me. He opened his mouth as if to say something but clasped it shut, He jumped up and walked out of the room “What did I say” “It’s not you he kind of finds it a little embarrassing, You see he actually lived here before he and his parents moved away…They moved because of the.. “No wait I’m not sure I want to know, it’s up to him if he wants to tell me why” “Are you sure” “Totally” Rose stared to tell me about her family and her brother that moved away because he and her dad didn’t get along very well, but what we didn’t notice that someone was listening in on our conversation. Jeremy walked toward the guest bedroom with a grin on his face, happy that his cousin did not tell his horrifying secret and amazed that I didn’t want to know. Days passed and rose showed me the sites after school. Jeremy had started on the Wednesday and we started to talk and found we had a lot in common but the subject of the reason why he moved here still stayed under the conversation. On Friday morning I jumped out of bed to the phone ringing in my ears, I looked at the clock it read 7.30am. I jumped up and answered it and was shocked to find it was Jeremy on the other end. “Hi, sorry if I woke you” “Oh no I was just getting up what is it” “I was just wondering if I could accompany you too school this morning” Puzzled I answered “Umm… Yeah sure just let me get dressed and I’ll be over” It was a good thing they lived so close. Rose lived two houses down from me not too far of a walk thankfully. I quickly dressed into a pair of long jeans and a dark blue sweater, then pulled a large jacket white leather jacket on over top, it was snowing out and I did not want to catch a cold. Winters in Vancouver were extremely beautiful but were also deadly cold. I picked up my port and ran out the door. I walked towards Roses house and up the balcony thinking the whole time why Jeremy rang me and wanted to walk ME to school, I mean I know we had talked and were getting to know each other a little bit but this just seemed very strange. Jeremy greeted me at the door “How are you” he asked “Good thank you, and you?” “Never been better” Jeremy turned and pulled the door shut and walked down the drive. We walked in awkward silence for a little while till I could take it no more “Why did you ask too walk me too school” he looked at me and answered “Because I thought you could use the company” I looked at him Shocked that he would say that, He must have seen the expression on my face because he quickly said “Not that I’m saying that you don’t have any friends” There was a silence again but this time he broke it “actually I wanted to find out a little bit more about you, seeing as you’re just as new as I am” “ But we have had pretty good conversations about our lives in the past two days and actually you would know this place a little better than me. Rose told me you had lived here before. And me living were I did before I have learned how to tell when a guy is lying and I’m sorry to say but you are lying through your teeth” I looked at him and smiled because I knew I was right. “Well… You are right I asked you to walk to school because I was curious at why you didn’t want to know my Deep Dark secret” “Because it wasn’t my place to know” He looked at me in a weird way and started to laugh “What?” “Nothing” And I heard him chuckle under his breath “What” “Nothing it’s just…nobody has ever NOT wanted to know about me” “Yeah well I’m different to a lot of other people” “I know” He looked at me and smiled and I blushed. I looked away and he chuckled. I could not help to be embarrassed but at least he understood. We walked the rest of the way in silent as we were before. We reached the front gate and he pulled it open and I walked through. “Listen” he said “I’ve got to go this way but I’ll meet up with you at lunch okay” I nodded and he left. Rose walked up behind me and tapped me on the shoulder; I turned around to find an angry face staring at me “Thanks for waiting” “What. Jeremy said that you didn’t want to walk with us” Roses face softened and she started too laugh “What” I said “Nothing, Its just that I asked Jeremy to wait for me, I wonder why he left” she looked at me with a cheeky grin on her face “Oh no, I don’t think so” I said I knew exactly what she was thinking “Jeremy has no interest in me what so ever, I promise you, and I have no interest in him” “Yeah what ever” And she turned and started to walk away “Well at least I think he doesn’t… and I don’t think I do” Then I followed her to first period. By lunch time I was stuffed, I sat down at the eating area and waited for rose to finish her next class. I started too eat my lunch when an unexpected tribe of people sat down next to me. “Hello Emily” It was Jessica Milton. “What do you want” I protested “Somebody told me that Jeremy Parker walked you to school today, is that true” “It might be, why” “I will tell you now Jeremy Parker is not someone you want to get involved in, He is dangerous and can’t be trusted” “Oh and you know what trust is”? “I certainly do for your information and trust is one thing you shouldn’t give him or that filthy cousin of his but if you’re willing I could help you find the RIGHT people to hang with” “No thanks I’m sure I’m perfectly capable of doing that myself” and with that I picked up my stuff and walked off leaving Jessica shocked that somebody rejected her. I couldn’t believe her, rose was close to my best friend and she was insulting her. I knew then SHE was the one not to be trusted. Why was Jessica Milton warning me off Jeremy? And what really happened here before he and his parents left? These plus many other questions screamed through my head while I was walking home with Rose and Jeremy. Rose looked at me obviously feeling concerned “Emily what’s wrong you seem awfully quiet this afternoon.” “Uhh nothing, nothing I just have a few things on my mind that’s all. I think I might take a walk before I go home, I’ll talk to you later, Okay” “Yeah, sure. Are you sure you’re okay though?” “Yeah Thanks” I started to walk away but Jeremy called me “Hay wait up I will come with you” “Umm yeah ok” Jeremy walked beside me and looked at me every now and then. After a little while of complete silence he said to me “Is there something bothering you” “Actually you know what there is” “Do you want to tell me?” “Not really” I said “But it might help”. Jeremy nodded “I thought I could do it you know but now I found I can’t. There always there, The unanswered questions” I started but regretted doing so because Jeremy knew exactly what I was talking about “You want to know don’t you” he stopped and turned towards me but was looking at the ground “You want to know about my horrible past that is some what hard for me to forget” I looked at him then at the ground and shook my head “No I don’t, But I would like to know weather I can trust you, that what ever you did was in the past and you faced the consequences for it.” Jeremy looked at me in surprise “Yes it is in the past and I did pay the price but you know what I am still paying for it and I always will be, because what I did I can never forget and it will always burn on my conscience” I could see that digging up the past was really hurting him and was not a good idea so I backed down” “Okay, that’s all I wanted to hear and know that I can trust you. But can I ask you one more question” “Yeah sure anything” “How do you know Jessica Milton?” I saw Jeremy’s face go as pale as a ghost and he looked at the ground “It was her that told you I couldn’t be trusted wasn’t it” Puzzled I answered “Yeah but how did you know” “Because she is one of the people involved” “In what” I asked puzzled. He looked at me innocently and that’s when it clicked. There was a sound of thunder and it started to lightly rain, Jeremy and I started to walk home but we didn’t get very far before Jeremy stopped me “I want you to know that you really can trust me” I looked at him and nodded. He continued “And I want to prove it to you” By now the rain was falling hard so it was difficult to hear “And how are you going to do that” I asked, Jeremy smiled and held my waist and pulled me closer and he whispered in my ear “Like this” and he kissed me. It was around 6.30 when I got home, I was cold and wet so I went straight and undressed and took a long hot shower. I ate dinner and went to bed… this was my usual routine but tonight it was different. I was lying in bed, with even more questions seeking answers in my head, when I heard a thump at my window. Our house was two stories high and it was still raining pretty badly so I ignored it, till it came again and this time harder. I got up and walked toward the window and was surprised to see Jeremy standing a story below me like Romeo stood under Juliet’s balcony and I couldn’t help but softly laugh to myself. He was dripping wet and obviously cold. I was glad that my mum and step-dad had gone away for two days on a business trip. I ran down stairs to the door and opened it to find him standing there smiling at me, I started to laugh and walked out and he wrapped his arms around me in a large bear hug, he was wet and freezing cold so I dragged him inside and told him to have a shower before he caught an ammonia. He reluctantly went upstairs and had a shower while I found him some of my step-dads clothes for him. I was slightly confused but all the more overjoyed at him being there with me in my own home, although my house wasn’t as attractive as roses it was my home and I liked it. I laid the clothes out on my bed for him and went down stairs to the kitchen to make hot chocolate. A few minutes later he came down wearing the jeans and the sleeveless shirt I had given him the shirt was I bit tight so it clung to the muscles on his stomach, anyone would be able to tell he worked out often. We sat down on the couch it was awkward but the TV broke a bit of the tension, that was until he took the remote and turned it off. I looked at him in surprise and confusion and he could see it in my eyes. “What’s wrong” I asked He looked at his feet then back at me “I want to tell you… I need to tell you what happened, I can’t stand keeping from you”I smiled and nodded “Go ahead then” And now to this day I’m glad he did but it was a shocking truth. He started “I had lived here in Vancouver my whole life, I was born and raised. I went to the same school and had plenty of friends… and a girlfriend.” He looked at me to see if he could find one hint of disapproval, it hurt but I smiled just listened and he went on “We had been going out for more than a year and I decided that I wanted to make a commitment… if you know what I mean”I nodded, it was disappointing but I didn’t show it “I was a 16 year old boy and any boy by then had had it or wanted it. So I confronted her and asked, she said she had been waiting for me to ask for quite some time. We decided that we would go to one of the New Year parties and there it would happen. We turned up and she went to off to find her mates or so I thought so and I went to find mine. At about 11 o’clock I went to find her but instead I found one of her friends that told me she had seen her going into one of the bedrooms…So I went to find her, but when I did she wasn’t alone, she was with my best friend. I kind of figured she felt guilty when she chased me out side to the car. By now I had my license and I had already started the car and she jumped in the passenger side and I sped off down the road” He paused and sipped his chocolate, Then started again “We started to argue and I turned to her to say something and the next thing I remember I was lying in a hospital bed at St Patrick’s” I gasped and he stopped and looked at me “Are you alright” I nodded. My face had gone pale and I felt weak but I was alright. He continued for the last time “I had been in a coma for 3 weeks, The doctors told me that we had a head on collision with a truck but the right hand side of the car had taken most of the beating By then I had realized that I had been the only one to survive” He stopped and took a breath. I just stared at him not realizing I was doing it. He sat there and looked at the ground. For a moment we both just zoned out until I came to my senses and asked “Who…who was she. The girl” He looked at me trying to hold back the tears, The next thing he said was as less a shock to me that the accident “Her name was Cyndi Milton” The next few days were the hardest, seeing Jeremy suffer was unbearable. He refused to talk or to eat he just sat in Roses House all day. Rose had come to school the next day and asked me what happened when I asked why she told me the Jeremy had returned home soaking wet and drunk. I told her what happened and she sighed “He said to me he was going to tell you. Emily he loved her so much and she broke his heart and I think that’s why he is so hard on himself.”“I was shocked but there is no reason for him to take it out on himself it was an accident” “I know that” Rose told me she grabbed me by the shoulder and looked at me“What” I asked“Do you know what Jeremy told me last night after he got home?” I shook my head “He told me to keep you away from him ‘cause he didn’t want what happened to Cyndi to happen to you, He told me he loved you just as much as he loved her and he didn’t want you to get hurt” What she said was music to my ears. We had only known each other for a week but in that time we instantly clicked. It was the 2 minute break between period 2 and 3 but I didn’t care. Before rose had even finished talking to me I had started down the hall towards the front door but not before I had the run in with Jessica. She stopped me in front of the door, I tried to go around her but step I took she copied it.“Do you mind Milton?”“No not really, where are you going. You wouldn’t be running off to see you little boyfriend of yours”“I don’t think that’s any of your business”“There’s a rumor gong around that he killed someone that’s why he left, did he tell you Emily” She was screaming at me now “Did he tell you he killed a young girl. A Girl that goes by the name of Cyndi, she was the most beautiful girl in the school and he killed her and guess what she was my sister, yep” She nodded “About a year ago, He murdered her and took her away from us, he put us through hell and every day I wish with all my heart that the pain he was going through was twice as strong as ours. I had wished that he suffered the way she did for 17 long hours before we decided to turn off life support” She straightened up and looked at me with a smug smile on her face “you wouldn’t want to be running off there would you, because the principal wouldn’t like that” I was raged now, how dare she call him a murderer when she new as much as I did that it was an accident “How dare you” I said under my breath“What was that” she smugly repliedBy now I was so raged that I gave way to my anger. I screamed “How dare you, You know as much as I do that it was an accident and it never would have happened if you’re ***** of a sister hadn’t cheated on him” That was obviously a bad thing to say because she launched herself at me into full attack. I managed to push her off of me and regained my balance. She stood up and then at the top of her lungs yelled “Jeremy Parker is a MURDERER!!!” And that was the last thing she said because she hit the ground, out cold after my right fist connected with her jaw. I looked at my handy work on the side of her face, smiled then ran out the door. I don’t think my heart has ever pumped as fast as it did when I stood at the door of the parkers place. So many thoughts ran through my head, Did he REALLY love me or was it lust? How much can I really trust him? I soon regretted thinking that when Jeremy answered the door. He was pail and skinny and looked like he hadn’t slept for three days.”Oh my god Jeremy” He looked at me and the tears in his eyes welled up again. I walked toward him and gave him a reassuring hug then he took me to the lounge room “What happened to you”“I…I…I couldn’t handle it, But I couldn’t keep it from you. I…I love you too much and I didn’t want you too hear the other side of the story from Jessica”“I never would have believed her any way” I moved closer too him and he pulled me into his chest. Then suddenly he turned me towards him and studied my face, I tried to pull away but he held me tight “What happened”“Nothing, I just had a small run in with somebody” He looked at the floor then at the small cut on the side of my face “I can guess who”I looked at the ground ashamed at what I did that was until Jeremy cracked up laughing all of a sudden “I can only imagine what you did to her” He looked at me as if to say ‘how much damage did you inflict’“Let’s just say she will have a very sore jaw tomorrow” We both started to laugh. I lay back down on his chest and thought to myself any one who had a guy like this should think themselves lucky. As I laid there I could feel his chest rise every time he took a breath and slowly we both fell asleep. It must have been about a half hour and the opening of the door woke me up, a cool winter breeze came in followed by Rose. She walked in and found me in his arms his head resting on mine. She looked at him, smiled and whispered to me “That is probably the first bit of sleep he has had in days” I smiled and gently moved his head off mine and got up and walked to the kitchen with her. “So did you get any sense from him” she askedI looked at her and smiled “He said he loved me and he started to cry” Now the tears started to swell up in my eyes “He reminds me so much of my mum it’s not funny. She didn’t eat or sleep for nearly a month after my father died” I started to cry and rose walked over to me and hugged me “He will get over it Emily. You can count on it, maybe not for ever, maybe one day in the future something will remind him of it But he will get over it and go on living” She looked at me convincingly and it calmed me down but my sobs didn’t stop. Jeremy walked in the kitchen door and saw that I had been crying “What’s wrong”I wiped my eyes “Nothing just dug up a few memories of the past”“Are you alright” He asked trying to comfort me. He walked up behind me and held me around the waist and rested his chin on my shoulderI turned my head and smiled “Yes I will be” he smiled back.Jeremy looked at his cousin and she took the hint and left. He turned me around in his arms and looked me in the eyes. I studied his face, every cute and lovable curve was hidden under all his anguish. “Listen” he started “I know I’ve only kissed you once but I really like you” he paused then he asked the question I had been longing for “Emily… will you go out with me. Copyright 2008 Ashley Amos |
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