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Solitude

Proclaiming my love to you was a sad mistake

All i got back was "no, i don't feel that way"

I should have known right from the start

You never had a heart

But I didn't care about anyone else at the time

I only cared about you, left all of my friends behind

But all of my friends were right about you

I was the one who didn't have a clue

Now I have seen all I have done

I have eaten the bullet out of the gun

There is no sympathy for me

I have to just let it be

But coming to realize what has laid to waste

Is much more than this bruised body can take

I will never be the same

I used to be so kind, never used to play such silly games

Now I only have myself

I have blocked everyone out, told them all to go to hell

I guess I should really be ashamed

For making you take all of the blame

But I don't feel ashamed at all

Even with you pushing my back up against the wall

You lied to me and you lied to him

Even now you still hold his hand

But he's blind to what you are

He's blind to the real you, he only sees a facade

You fed him lies to make him stay

And it's pathetic, what more can I say

It's unfortunate you feel such a strain

But giving me your blame doesn't change anything

now stop living in the pretend

this is reality and all things come to an end

Keyword: Solitude

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Posted by gsaracen 2008-03-15 16:32:18 .... yeah....they always try and blame you...those types. And they always come up with some way to feel they are in the right and you are silly. And they always know how to use lots and lots of words and pseudo-philosophies. The good news is... you get used to it! So burn out that anger,....eventually you'll be fine. + Report this comment
Posted by resistanceisfreedom 2008-03-15 17:00:01 .... heh, is seems as though you know exactly what i'm talking about. it's nice to know i'm not the only one out there lol. but yes you are so right they know exactly what strings to pull and exactly what to say. But i think i have found someone else who isn't out to play a game. you and i should talk more about our problems haha. + Report this comment
Posted by gsaracen 2008-03-15 17:07:46 hehe yeah... well..if you wanna know more about my flavour of messed up...read Palindromic Nihilism. lol. That's based on this really angry messed up phase I went through when I was bouts... 17 to 19. lol.... I hope you were not that messed up though. + Report this comment
Posted by Dirkin 2008-03-15 22:30:04 .... do you know, professing your love for someone who is not already intimate with you is both the hardest and most unwise thing you can ever do? I say that because I always take supposed 'signals' the wrong way + Report this comment
Posted by R.E.Potter 2008-03-16 07:40:37 ,,, Sounds like a scorned lover who got dumped on. good read. + Report this comment

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