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Whore

Living alone inside this crumbling head

Trying to take in everything you have said

Perfect is not the word for me

I'm far from seamless and healthy

It took you to help me realize

That even so called friends can tell lies

Everyday I think of this

Everyday I get stuck in the shit

Revenge, it's hard to say

My feelings differentiate day to day

But jealousy is surely not the case

Although I wish it was, it would be an easier emotion to face

It's just raw confusion that has me in despair

Trying to ignore the flaws is alot to bear

Blaming you makes ME less then expected

But YOU let me down the day you said "I can't forget him"

It's a lie to think I have made myself hate you

The hate eventually comes natural, and I don't have to prove

Loving me doesn't matter anymore

When I have ripped out my heart at its very core

Nothing pumps with life in this heap

Suddenly this world is no longer filled with mystique

And truth is just a word written in contracts

Truth really doesn't exist, it is only abstract

Everything good never lasts

To find evidence of that I keep going back to the past

But please do not decide what is best for me

You have nothing that will set my mind at ease

It's hard to see how this could have been all my fault

When everyone tells me you have played me from the start

Unfortunately I can't shut up

About what you did to me

That would be absurd

To forget about what has caused me disease

Maybe I can't accept the best, I can't seem to find that place

But forgive me for thinking just friends was a slap in the face

You were the one who told me we were never friends

"We are much much closer than friends"

I guess that was also pretend

I really cannot accept the fact that you didn't choose me

With that I cannot disagree

What did you think would happen when you turned me down

Did you think I would smile without a frown

Did you think I would be okay

You think my care for you should stay?

Well **** that

I can't give to you what you never gave back

After you ripped me down

Held me down to drown

Don't shift everything on me

It won't change my view on the scenery

I can't forgive what you have done

You have taken away the glowing sun

Now the sunflowers have died

Everything you meant to me stays frozen in time

I can only create these bitter rhymes

They comfort me, keep me alive

Because of you I'm a whore

I keep my infection always sore

I can't face myself

I come back to the ***** in me for help

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Posted by gsaracen 2008-03-15 12:53:33 great great stuff! deep, angry and sad. have been there. Oh well, such is life. Just don't EVER get into a triangle. Also... after getting screwed over like that once.... it does not happen again... because you aren't the same anymore... next time you just go...o well....another fuck up....now who's my next ex? eenie...meenie...mynie...MO! + Report this comment
Posted by resistanceisfreedom 2008-03-15 14:55:55 .... o but in the triangle is where i have been my friend. and it WON'T happen again. everything i need to know i have learned from my mistake. i won't let myself get thrashed again. i need people who only care for me not for anyone else. ah who gives a shit anymore. thanks for the comment! + Report this comment
Posted by Dirkin 2008-03-15 22:15:18 .... I have been the 'just friends' guy that gets the beautiful behaviour that 'seems like' love from a girl myself, a couple of times in my life. This is a good poem for expressing just the sort of frustration that it brings + Report this comment
Posted by Tarhead Mugwump 2008-03-15 23:10:46 you know what and keep in mind that i say this with a smile... when you find that perfect one for you - we're really going to miss your poetry! or not, maybe we'll look forward to it. this phase in your life has definitely developed the passion cells in your head! write on! + Report this comment
Posted by resistanceisfreedom 2008-03-16 08:32:35 wow you guys on here are absolutely amazing. you know exactly where i am coming from. i'm glad you can feel my frustration as well. thank you very much for your input. makes me feel good + Report this comment
Posted by nick711 2008-03-16 19:25:14 .... it had a meaning i think we could all connect to + Report this comment

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