No Appetite 

As soon as I heard the words,
things have got worse,
I started to cry.

Seeing me so distressed,
the doctor left me
to my own thoughts,
my own tears.

He returned later,
right before dinner
as usual,
to ruin the appetite
I never had.

He told me
the chemotherapy
hadn't worked
and gave me
a number of options,
which all read
like a death sentence.

Radiation
appears to be the best
punishment,
with side effects
that range from fatigue
to hair loss
and irritable skin.

I asked myself,
what have I got to lose?

My answer
pulled everything into
perspective,

Only everything,
I whispered.