He woke up to roughly one hundred billion neurons scream. The alarm
clock, however it did, worked. Some of his brain calmed down after he
pressed snooze. Some of it didn't. Part of his brain wanted an english
muffin. One part wanted to get rid of his hangover by drinking a little
more, and another part wanted to stop drinking altogether. But the
loudest part whined at him to get dressed, grab his keys, a pen, some
willpower, pour $3.45 worth of gas into the tank and open the door to
Requirements 101, for some reason he wasn't quite sure of yet.
But
he wasn't out of bed yet, and he was far from decided. He read the
clock and subtracted an hour because he'd never gotten around to fixing
it. He felt last night. It was on his breath, on the scattering of his
pillows, and in the tiremarks that lead out of his driveway. So that
was about it. Tomorrow and today, both wearing their widest smile and
nicest suit, and standing off for the possession of his morning. It was
the everyday battleground. Shots fired so often it's forgotten how
definitive and complex the sound is.
He hadn't given up on the
gray, yet. The blacks and whites, they had their thing, and it worked
for them. Every test question they could answer with A, or B, and they
could do it so fast they wouldn't have to think about it anymore. The
best he could come up with, from the school desk to the bathroom floor,
was a unrefined, undiscovered lump of a little A and a little B. He
liked it that way. It sure made getting out of bed difficult, though.
He
watched the clock transform a :00 into a :05, then into a :10. He could
see the parking spaces getting more and more distant, and the traffic
getting more and more thick. He could also see a trail of footsteps
from heavy work boots slugging in the mud, already clocked in and going
and reaping today's benefits. He lay on his side in a groove carved
into the bed. This, now, today, would be a tough one.
There were
no lawnmowers and no barking dogs. He got up, put on deodorant and
found his keys. There was something irreplaceable about this morning.
It wasn't brighter than usual, and he wasn't expecting much. It was a
quiet number. Undemanding. Simple. Raw. There wasn't a tumor clinging
to his folder, but there wasn't one in his wallet either. There wasn't
much of anything, except the kind of silence that makes an empty room a
museum. He stepped out onto the porch. The sun was still waking,
cracking it's neck and peeling an orange. For now, the moisture in the
air and the puddles on the ground were safe, but the sun and the water
both knew they had a long day ahead of them, because neither of them
could exist for very long together. In the early morning, even if for
just today, they seemed to get along, and even if it was timed, he
couldn't have cared less.
Copyright 2008 Shoosh Russelcrust
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