Yes, but did you have a thrilling good time?

Not really, but I got to read Brave New World. Mind blowing stuff. It inspires me. I need to crank out some more Sci-Fi in here.

But I greatly missed my girlfriend, Gertrude. She's from Germany, 69 years old, but in brilliant shape. ...yes she is an amalgamation of metal and wood. I just hope someone doesn't get her before I do.

I have always had a problem with anger. Not that I cannot control it, but it can sometimes become so great that it interferes with my work. Of course I get angry frequently, but not usually enough to feel like attacking someone.

But sometimes I get so angry that I simply sit quietly, doing nothing, not speaking to anyone. Eventually I end up breaking something. I don't care what anyone says, the only way for me to dissipate my anger is to physically exert myself.

So yesterday I was royally pissed (and I don't mean drunk to those who speak British English). This morning I heard on the school news that a young man from a rival school was killed when he was struck by a semi-truck. It really disturbs me. Let me explain why.

About a year ago, I was having a terrible day at school and was very angry. I recall writing in my journal that I was so angry that "it felt orgasmic." The next day a fellow church-goer was killed in a head on collision. Later on some fellow youth from my church were annoying me. That night the President of the church, Gordan B. Hinckley, died. Not much later my very own grandfather died. And now this young man, while I might not know him, has died.

I cannot figure out why this occurs. I've had too many good people die within the last decade. Hell, even in the last five years.

shit,,,and im flying on wednesday....can you be NOT so pissed until I return,,,SAFELY

Let me ask one simple, little question. Why in the hell am I wasting my god damn time here? Anyone care to tell me that? In the meantime good luck with whatever the **** you need to do.

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Let me ask one simple, little question. Why in the hell am I wasting my god damn time here? Anyone care to tell me that? In the meantime good luck with whatever the **** you need to do.

No one can answer that but you. I'm here cause I think its fun. Didn't mean to offend you with my remark...it was all meant for fun. Not sure if this comment was directed at me, but if it was...I will try and have fun with whatever I do...thanks. To add one thing,,,,death happens...its nothing your doing to cause it...light'n up on yourself my friend.

yea son,you seem kinda pissed... if you dont like this place, you could... leave?..not saying you should.. but you could. and whats this spitting on peoples graves who drink and do illegal things..well.. only the good die young.. if you know what i mean... and for the people dying..you go to church and believe in god, right?.. you should have no questions unanswered in that area (death)